Loving is an art. It’s how you express your interest over
someone else to them. Loving can take variety of forms. But what’s known best
is the kind of love fantasy that everyone is looking for, craving for,
searching for, and could not be found. I just meant it does not come easy. You
have to shape it, change it, and polish it, so that you can have a love of your
satisfaction. True love is not found but made. At least, it was what I believed
in. But my experiences so far tell a different story.
I’ve always believed in trying. No matter how hard it is, I
have to try if I ever decide to love someone. But I guess trying itself has
limitation. And the definition of limitation is also different for me and the
other side.
I was in a committed relationship for two years and a half.
In other word, I was in a one-side-committed relationship for two years and a
half because everything changed when I started giving all of what I have into
this relationship. I think it’s worth mentioning that he did put his effort too
but only just to get me or to get back.
What really happened was that, I was waiting for a person to
rightfully respect this relationship. To commit what he promised. I was waiting
for him to change. And he did change. From good to worse.
What happened to planning a date on the weekend?
What happened to hanging out just to stay together?
What happened to hanging out just to stay together?
What happened to communicating well between one another?
What happened to trying to understand each other?
What happened to showing that you care?
What happened to proving your love?
What happened to being committed?
What happened to your tolerance?
And what I just got myself to believe in after all these
times is that he didn’t change a bit for this relationship. He’s still the way
he is. Selfish. And that happens to almost every couple I know. That’s why it
comes to the question, what happened to loving someone with all you have? Is it
out of trend? Does it kill you to do so?
