Expectation. Everyone faces expectation. High or low, it just sets the standard to hurt one’s feeling if they are subjected to expectation.
Even worse, if you are from a typical Asian household, you might as well have felt the pressure and expectation since you’re very little.
We’re trained to be a good child. To be a good student. To obey. To achieve. To be the best of all as they have envisioned.
I’m none of them. Or at least to their expectation and definition of a good child.
They wanted me to be an outstanding student. I’m just average.
They wanted me to study medicine. I went for politics.
They wanted me to live abroad. I came back.
They wanted me to run a business. I work for a living.
They wanted me to get married. I’m not straight.
They wanted me to follow them. I fight back.
As much as I take pride in myself about what I have achieved so far, they are just not gonna be proud of me. And that’s just it.
I’m just tired of fighting back for who I really am and what they should expect out of me and maybe it’s really time that I drop my dream and walk on their path.
