“Someday, I’ll have the confidence to go to a coffee shop alone” I told myself. And I did it. I did it after a few years of confidence building. After a few years of being scared to just get out there and buy things and do things on my own.
I suffer from a tremendous lack of confidence ever since I began notice, probably at the age of 6.
I remember being scared just to go talk to the vendor. When I was around 6, my family was at an amusement park and I wanted to go play at the pop the balloon stall 10 meters away from my dad. I asked him to get me there but he insisted that I go alone. I didn’t get to go and went to play with my little brother instead.
I remember one thing that might led to this. It was a few years before I was 6. One day during my kindergarten class it was raining hard and the students rushed to the store downstairs during recess. In that moment, I was pushed and fell on the muddy flooded floor.
Maybe it got stuck there. I remember at grade 4 I still could not go to the stores behind my building without my best friend. I would ask him to accompany every time. But maybe he got annoyed. He stopped saying yes after a few years.
It was grade 8. I still could not go. I asked random people to help buy me things while I stay in class. But after a while, things changed and I started doing it on my own. Step by step. Little by little.
Up until today, I’m still proud of how long I have come so far. And there are so much more negativities in life that I think I have managed to breakthrough. How about you? What kind of obstacle that you are proud to have overcame?
