something is gone

i used to believe in true love. rainbow. cupid. sweet things. background music. and all that. i used to believe that he was the one. because what we have been through would be legitimate enough to prove me that he loves me. but who am i to know? maybe i was wrong. maybe it doesnt work like that. maybe while i was thinking that he is committed, his love fades. i used to believe that this relationship is about the other side coming to love us. care. protect. but maybe i was wrong too. i didnt realize that it was about 2 people. to me, when i get into someone, i tend to put all my efforts and commitments. i tend to believe that it would last forever. it tend to believe that no matter what happens, it is still us. never have i thought that my actions everyday would make his love for me fades this much. or maybe it's his definition of love and limitation? i dont know. i didnt know that i could be this dangerous. that dangerous when i thought i was doing well in the relationship and that i made him believe enough that i would not go anywhere and i've settled down for him. maybe it's just a part of nature or maybe it's just that our definitions of love are different?